Sunday, October 5, 2014
It’s been a year since you said you made a huge mistake and want me back. Yet you are still living with her and her kid! Nothing about that says you love me or regret your choices.
There was a time in my life I believed EVERY word you said. Now I know better.
I forgive you for walking out on me. That doesn’t mean I will ever let you back into my life. (Fool me once and all that) Maybe if you had treated me with honesty and compassion. Even to this day you still lie to me and about me, steal money from me… still no honesty, compassion. So why would I want you back?
You think just because you say you love me I’m going to fall to pieces and welcome you back with open arms? NO. I want more than words. I want so much more than you have ever given me.
We were not meant to be forever… or we would still be together. I’m not angry or trying to punish you in any way. It’s not about you. This is about me. Loving myself enough not to settle.
I stopped waiting for you a long time ago. I’m still trying to heal from all the lies. Trying to find myself without the titles – mom, wife.
I only want to be treated with fairness, honesty, compassion. I want what is written in the divorce you wanted. Please just give me the peace I have given you.