“Because I’m leaving you”.
With those words my world crashed down into bits and pieces on the floor.
“I’m not in love with you anymore”.
I kept asking him if there was someone else and he kept saying no. He even laughed at me saying, “Who would want me?”
Then came the punch to my gut that ripped out my heart and made me literally want to vomit right where I was. Yes. He is seeing someone else. He didn’t want to tell me until Chance graduated in the spring. He still wanted to stick to that plan of living together until …. Well, he didn't know. (I think he DOES KNOW he just doesn't want to share his plans with me)
I cried. I begged. “I’ll do anything you want. I’ll have the lap-band surgery. I'll get my hair done. I'll get contacts. I'll dress better. I’ll spend more time with you outside. I’ll do ANYTHING. Please don’t leave me. I love you.”
Nothing I said moved him into ANY emotion whatsoever. I didn’t even recognize this man.
He said he’s been seeing her for over a year and slept with her at their class reunion.
He said she lived out of state. He only slept with her that one time and that was the last time he has seen her face to face. OK, REALLY, who believes that one? Not me. You don’t leave 22 yrs of memories for a one time fuck. My gut says he’s been seeing her A LOT more often then he’s admitting.
I cried the rest of the night while he slept like a baby.
Did I ever really know this man?