Monday, July 9, 2012

Beginning of the End

The real fireworks came the day after the 4th.  I was telling Garett what a great night it was.  I said how we needed a larger table for our growing family.  I told him I wanted to start doing a Sunday dinner and game night.  He said that wouldn't happen.  I asked him why. 

“Because I’m leaving you”.

With those words my world crashed down into bits and pieces on the floor.

“Why?”

“I’m not in love with you anymore”.

I kept asking him if there was someone else and he kept saying no.  He even laughed at me saying, “Who would want me?”

Then came the punch to my gut that ripped out my heart and made me literally want to vomit right where I was.  Yes.  He is seeing someone else.  He didn’t want to tell me until Chance graduated in the spring.  He still wanted to stick to that plan of living together until …. Well, he didn't know.  (I think he DOES KNOW he just doesn't want to share his plans with me)

I cried.  I begged.  “I’ll do anything you want.  I’ll have the lap-band surgery.  I'll get my hair done.  I'll get contacts.  I'll dress better.  I’ll spend more time with you outside.  I’ll do ANYTHING.  Please don’t leave me.  I love you.”

Nothing I said moved him into ANY emotion whatsoever.  I didn’t even recognize this man.

He said he’s been seeing her for over a year and slept with her at their class reunion. 

He said she lived out of state.  He only slept with her that one time and that was the last time he has seen her face to face.  OK, REALLY, who believes that one?  Not me.  You don’t leave 22 yrs of memories for a one time fuck.  My gut says he’s been seeing her A LOT more often then he’s admitting.

I cried the rest of the night while he slept like a baby.

Did I ever really know this man?



3 Friends Commented:

Karen and Gerard said...

I feel so sad for your reading this. This sounds like something in a novel, not in real life! What a difference 24 hours can make, huh? This is terrible! Following such a fun night too; sounds like he really shocked you with this. All I can say is to turn to God and let Him be your rock and comfort and strength. He will help you through.

~ Mona said...

Thank you so much.

It was a shock. I still can not believe this is happening that it's real. I NEVER saw this coming.

Camille Griffiths said...

Isn't it awful how people can change. :( I think it can happen to the best relationships. But the fact that he lied to you and cheated on you is just wrong. So beyond wrong. My heart goes out to you. Of course I have never been in your shoes, but I've been cheated on, and I know you must be feeling beyond awful. You will get through this and if he is such a lowlife that he even feel bad for what he's done, you are better off without him anyway... You will be ok, just take it one day at a time...