So the same day as the graduation party, a friend from work was having a party to mark the end of another school year. It was supposed to be a time to relax.
Again, I didn't go, couldn’t do it… my phobia, mess with Gman and my achy heart as I miss the past. I just can’t handle these feelings of…emptiness.
I didn’t want to call my friend and bring her down before her party so I sent her a Facebook message. I told her the truth about being an emotional mess. I didn’t share my Gman crap… 1 – I’m hoping it will work out and 2 – I don’t like talking badly about him because he really is a good man.
As far as everyone else – If asked why I didn't go, I’m sure to lie and say I just wasn’t feeling well…. But is that really a lie? I really WAS NOT feeling well.