Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I Lied - part 2

So the same day as the graduation party, a friend from work was having a party to mark the end of another school year. It was supposed to be a time to relax.

Again, I didn't go, couldn’t do it… my phobia, mess with Gman and my achy heart as I miss the past. I just can’t handle these feelings of…emptiness.

I didn’t want to call my friend and bring her down before her party so I sent her a Facebook message. I told her the truth about being an emotional mess. I didn’t share my Gman crap… 1 – I’m hoping it will work out and 2 – I don’t like talking badly about him because he really is a good man.

As far as everyone else – If asked why I didn't go, I’m sure to lie and say I just wasn’t feeling well…. But is that really a lie? I really WAS NOT feeling well.

4 Friends Commented:

Deb Chitwood said...

My heart breaks for you, Mona. I know how difficult the empty nest syndrome is, since I've been dealing with that myself. It's been easier for me, though, because my husband and I do lots together. I'll be praying that everything works out for you and your husband. Lots of love and hugs from your newest follower. Deb @

~ Mona said...

Thanks so much, Deb. I'll be visiting your blog: EmptyNesters unite.

Sandra's Fiberworks said...

It can be hard to get yourself out the door when you feel like crap. Sometimes it's the best remedy, and sometimes not. Hard to know either way.

~ Mona said...

If it wasn't for work, I probably wouldn't leave the house.
Scary thought.