Saturday, July 31, 2010

My angry sim.
I love the Sims 2.  I play on PC.  Love it!  It's a great way to be creative (building homes and families).  It's also very relaxing.

I haven't played in close to 2 months.  (That may be a record for me)  Today, I jumped on and started up where I left off.  Damn, I still love this game! 

I blame it all on M.  Years ago he rented The Sims Bustin' Out for PlayStation.  He wanted me to come take a look at these funny Sims.  I've been hooked ever since.  I'm sure he's kicking himself for sharing.  I am now a Sim addict.

I've tried Sims 3.  I didn't like at all.  My Sims don't look the same as the commercials or packaging.  After giving it up for a few months, I tried again.  Nope.  Still do not like.

Btw, if you need Sim 2 codes/tips, please leave a comment - I have tons.

Do you Sim?  What is your guilty pleasure?

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Thursday, July 29, 2010

I find being a mom of boys a HUGE responsibility.  No, I'm not knocking all the wonderful moms of girls.  I just happen to have boys so I'm writing what I know.

Read the paper, watch the news, most violent crimes are committed by men - women being the victims.  Most women have a man as a boss.  So raising boys to be respectful toward women is a MUST.  Teaching them how to be great men in society is what all moms of boys need to do.

Teaching starts from the get go:  not to hit or bite,  how to walk away from a fight, opening doors for women, no means no, respect, responsibility, on and on and on.  Teaching your little one doesn't start when they can talk or start school.  It starts from the first day they enter the world.  They should always know what you expect from them.

What challenges have you faced being a mom?  What is your favorite thing about being a mom?

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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I had just gotten home from dropping off C at Driver's Training.  Tyson greeted me with his wagging tail. (Actually, I don't think that thing ever stops wagging)

He followed me around the house as I did chores.  As I sat checking my email, I realized Tyson was not glued to my side. Then, I thought I heard him whining.

I called his name, searched the backyard, looked in every room.  No Tyson.  I even looked in our bathroom.  Where did I find him?  In the boys' bathroom.  He must have gotten in there and the door shut behind him.

He was so happy when I found him.  I swear he was smiling.  He's such a silly dog.  I love him.

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Monday, July 26, 2010

Thanks, Melanie for giving me this Versitile Blogger Award. I can't tell you how much I needed the smile. Please make sure to visit Melanie's blog: 
Read it in 7 Days

7 things about myself:

  1. I watch way too much junk TV.... well, all TV actually. 
  2. Once I start playing Sims 2 on pc I can NOT stop. 
  3. Red Twizzlers are my favorite candy. 
  4. I put salt on everything except my popcorn, weird I know. 
  5. I took a quiz to find out which tv mom I'm mostly like. I got Sharon Osborn. That explained a lot.
  6. I love Jesus.
  7. I dream of winning the lotto.

15 Blogs You Should Visit: 
(Award Rules at end of post)
  1. Blue Frog Legs
  2. Stories From the Shoebox
  3. Cori's Big Mouth
  4. I Married a Moron - and Survived!
  5. Confessions From a Paper Bag
  6. The Jilted Ballerina
  7. Love Imagine Create
  8. Gruneisen Family News
  9. For the Love of Cooking
  10. Looking Stawberries
  11. Firefly Blog
  12. And then the Refreshments Come...
  13. Sierra Lorraine
  14. 365 Days with the 330 Pound Woman
  15. The Stinker Pinker
Here's how this award works:
  1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you this award.
  2. Share 7 things about yourself.
  3. Pass the award along to 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic for whatever reason!
  4. Contact the bloggers you've picked and let them know about the award! I’m sure they’ll be thankful ;-)
Congrats to all these blogs!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

As our oldest started high school the sadness started creeping in at the thought of my boys someday moving out on their own.

I started keeping a mental list of things I'd like to do or learn as I get more time to myself. You know, focus on positive stuff instead of being upset that my boys are growing up and moving out.

As life changes, I'm sure this list will too... but here it is for now:
  • Learn to sew.
  • Learn to garden.
  • Read more.
  • Crochet more.
  • Learn to be more Green.
  • Keep trying to get healthy.

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Friday, July 23, 2010




I received my very first blog award last month.  Yup, I'm right on top of things.  Well, like my Mom-In-Law always says, "It's never too late to say Thank You".


Thanks so much to Kelly from Blue Frog Legs for thinking of me.  It's a great feeling.  Please stop by Kelly's blog and check her out.  She is one cool chick. 

The Rules: 
1)  Sum up your blogging philosophy, motivation, and experience in 5 words.
2)  Pass along this award to 10 other amazing blogs.

So here we go:
How do I sum it all up?  
Humorous Honest Helpful Fun Learning

Blogs You Should Visit:
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Thursday, July 22, 2010

I can't believe it's been a year.
        Inconsolable

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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

You know how they say anorexics see themselves as fat even when they are so thin their bones are poking through their skin?  Well, I have the opposite disease.  I see myself as thin.  OK, so maybe not "thin" but at least not obese.  That is until I look in the mirror.  It's the only time I see the fat.

When watching The Biggest Loser I feel empathy for those people who are so deeply depressed by their weight.  Why am I not depressed over my weight? 

I get upset but more than anything it pisses me off.  I get pissed when cloths don't fit, pissed that the seat belt is getting tighter, pissed that I huff and puff and pissed that I broke a chair at work.


Actually I'm not sure how pissed I am about the chair thing since I'm kinda laughing right now at the thought of breaking it.  No joke.  I really broke an office chair at work! (Over time, not at once, but still...broken)

Maybe my weight doesn't bother me because I never had a weight problem until after the birth of our second child.  From then on it's been a steady weight increase.  Also, I don't know... I guess... I don't blame anyone but myself (and that bitch Wendy - love the fries).

I know I'm fat.  Actually, I'm obese.  So what is the matter with me!  Why can't I get my ass in gear?  I've tried to lose weight.  I've had some success in the past.  

My problem is I give up too fast.  No one notices I've lost 7oz and I give up.  Also, It's A LOT of hard work.  Do you know how long I'd have to keep this shit up to loose all this fat!  What a pain! 

Then I look at chicks like this and I'm all, "Yeah, I can do this".  (She is so my hero!)  It's a never ending roller coaster and it's making me kinda sick already.  Who knows.  Maybe someday I'll finally jump off.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Here are some links of my blogging tips and how to's:


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Monday, July 19, 2010

C has finally started driver's training.  He should have started earlier but damn... that's 300 bucks we just didn't have.  So now he's taking Segment 1. (Segment 2 is another 100 bucks - I'll rant later)  This is mostly class time but he also needs to complete 10 hrs of driving time with the instructor.

We started with baby steps.  I would stop my car at the end of the driveway and let him coast on in.  He did this for quite awhile.  The next step was letting him drive at the high school parking lot.  We did this for a few weeks. 

Now, I've been taking him down country roads.  He's doing really well.  The trips have gotten longer and longer.  I think we will be repeating this route until he gets his permit.

Once he gets his permit we will start on the main roads then on to the two lane roads and later.... the highway.  (This is what I did with M)

I say I because Gman could not handle riding with either of them.  Neither of them could handle Gman teaching them.  It is so weird because Gman is so kind and patient but driver's training really works his nerves.

My sweet baby boy.  I love you so much and I'm so very proud of you.  You are doing a great job!

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Sunday, July 18, 2010

You have to watch these Orbit commercials.  They are hilarious!!

I love this Orbit commercial.




I've actually never seen this Orbit commercial but it was SO damn funny I had to add this add it.



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Saturday, July 17, 2010

Have you ever seen something so beautiful it made you cry? Music, movies, even commercials can make me cry... I'm a dork that way. This dance made me cry too.

The choreographer dedicated this to his mom. The girl is suppose to represent his mom and the guy represent him helping his mom... I guess she is ill.


See if it touches you too. 

If you're having trouble seeing this, click this link:

FIX YOU




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Friday, July 16, 2010

Who do you write for?  Do you know your audience?  Maybe you're like me and you completely forget who is reading your blog.

When I post I'm a little selfish.  I type what I'm thinking.  I write for me.  I write my thoughts.  I really never stop to think of which family or friends may be reading.  

Sure, I've written a letter to oldest son.  I've even written a note at the end of a post to my dad.  Do I really think they're reading?  No.  (At least I didn't until earlier this week when my dad mentioned that he thinks I'm a "great writer" - so cool)

I've told tons of family and friends about my blog.  No one has really said anything about what I've written.  I know for sure of one cousin who won't be reading.

As I read my first post I wondered what my family would think if they read it.  I wonder.... if everyone I've told, read my blog.... would it change the way they feel about me?  What would shock them the most?

Mostly I feel I'm an open book. I can't imagine anything really shocking anyone.  I guess the only thing that would really shock anyone are the times I get down.  I'm mostly an optimistic person.  When things do get me down I have those very few go-to-people (and now this blog) I vent or cry to.

My blog is my journal.  As I rant, observe and post, I'm sure to stick my foot in my mouth.  (believe me, I do it all the time)  So I'm making my apologies now.... what can I say, I'm a dork but I'm also a really great chick!

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Thursday, July 15, 2010

I didn't post my Weekly Wednesday Challenge because it was a joke.  I accomplished NOTHING.  It's not that I can't do it - I just haven't gotten on the program.

C couldn't have said it better, "Boy, Mom, you're gonna feel so embarrassed going back to work (in the fall) when you haven't lost any weight".  He's right.... and still that has NOT motivated me to get my shit together.

I started great.  I had a daily plan - cereal for breakfast, salad for lunch, 2 healthy snacks, healthy dinner with plenty of veggies, tons of water and zero pop.  I measured EVERYTHING. 

So what happened?  Well, you are about to enter a TMI zone... all those healthy veggies and water created a major shit fall - literally.  I was doing something at least every 90 minutes!  My hole was so damn sore I could barely walk!  I swear I shit out 10 pounds! 

So why don't I feel 10 pounds lighter?  I'm so pissed at myself, I didn't even bother to weigh-in.  I blame NO ONE but myself. I'm being lazy. That's all there is to it.  No excuses.

I'm finally giving in.  Gman has been wanting me to really think about medical intervention.  I'm giving the Lap-Band serious consideration.

This is NOT an easy fix for me.  The whole thing really scares me... the procedure itself, being poked at, going under, loose skin... all of it.

I would love your feedback on Gastric Bypass vs LapBand.


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Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The whole thing with Ed got me thinking of the guys who never knew how I felt about them.  Would I ever come clean with them?  I'm not sure how many crushes I've had but these are the ones that come to mind:

My very first crush was in the 5th grade - Josh.  I really don't remember much about Josh.  I just remember really liking him.  I've never told him he was my first crush.  As I look at his picture now it makes me smile, not because my heart goes pity pat (it doesn't) but because of that little girl inside me who thought he was just the cutest.
(btw, this picture is from 9th grd)

My first high school crush was Adam but I think he knows that.  (This pic is from 9th grd - about when I started crushing) When I was about 17 I told him a HUGE lie.  He asked if I was a virgin and I said no.  Why the hell would I lie?  {kicking myself}  I guess I just didn't want him to know I was the last virgin on earth.  (How stupid)  I'm too embarrassed to tell him what a dumb ass liar I was.

My last crush was Gman.  Reading about him in my old journal made me feel so giddy.  That crush turned into so much more and I thank God for that everyday.

So maybe someday I'll get to find out the other side of that Ed thing.  Maybe someday I'll tell those guys about my silly school girl crushes - but for the next few minutes I'll think of my newest crush.... yeah, that's Hugh Jackman {sigh}.


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Sunday, July 11, 2010


Here is my very first post: Milestones


Somewhere on my online community I was linked up to a member's first post ever.  It got me thinking of my first post. 

As you may know, I've always kept a journal and started this blog as an extension of that - also to keep long distance family and friends in the loop.

My blog is now more of a personal journal - something just for me.  So I'm always pleasantly surprised when I get a comment (love them) or new follower (love them too).
Here is my very first post:  Milestones

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I came across some of my old journals.  It was so weird looking through them.  (I know I have tons more somewhere) 

I was a really great chick!  I was so confident and smart.  I wrote about wanting Gman in my life.  I also wrote about Ed, a male friend I had at the time.

Both Gman and a cousin have always said this guy had a huge crush on me.  My cousin was convinced that he was in love with me.  She said it was the way he looked at me.  I thought Gman and my cousin were both nuts.  Sure I hung out with Ed (a lot) but usually we were with another chick.  Actually, he told me he was crushing on her.

He was attractive, funny, worked two jobs.  He was always so sweet a caring.  I never lead Ed on.  #1 - I told him I hoped Gman and I would turn into something serious.  #2 - Ed and I worked together and I told him a relationship with a co-worker would be too weird.  #3 - Ed slept with my cousin in high school.  Even though he and I didn't know each other then, I just could NOT sleep with someone who had his way with someone I know, let alone a relative.  Talk about weird.

The last time I saw Ed was at our wedding.  I tried calling him a few times after but his mom would only say he didn't want to talk to me.  No reason given.  I sent him and his wife (same page) a MySpace friend request.  Per my email, they accepted.  When I went to leave a comment saying "Hi" they had blocked me!   Both Gman and cuz think this validates their crush theory. 

I've seen Ed's (and wife) FaceBook page.  I haven't tried to contact them.  Maybe if Ed had his own page.  By the way, what's with the same page deal?  Kinda insecure don't you think?  Gman and I have separate MySpace and FaceBook pages.  He has old high school female friends (and girlfriends) as friends on his pages.  I mean, if they're gonna leave you, they're gonna leave you.  (btw, I only have male and female friends on my pages)

Anyway, as I'm reading through this journal with a new perspective, I think Ed really did care about me.  Why didn't I see it then?  He called, he came over, he cooked for me.  At one time I couldn't afford and phone and he said he missed me.  How could I NOT see?

To me, this validates my love for Gman.  Boy, love really is blind.  All I could see was Gman.  I still love him with all my heart.  He drives me BANANAS!  But he's mine.

I have thought about Ed through the years.  I miss his friendship.  It's unfair that he should leave my life without warning or reason.  Why do friends leave?  .... or do we leave them?

Thursday, July 8, 2010

UPDATE #2:  (7/18/10)
Added the following How To links:

Let me just start by saying I'm super new to this. I'm embarrassed to say I spent hours trying to figure this shit out. So I'm saving this so I don't forget and posting it so if you're like me you don't have to waste your time.

The following is how to add your button to your blogger blog.

1) Upload/create picture on computer.

2) Upload picture to Picasa (or similar), change size, add text, etc. then save to desktop.


3) Now go to your Blogger Dashboard, click Design, click Add Gadget, find Picture and click on + sign.

4) This screen will pop up.


5) Enter your blog url in Link box. Click Browse. Find your picture from your desktop. Click Open. Click Save.


6) Click View Blog and there it is. Now save and your good to go.

*UPDATE: I originally posted this on 6/13/10. I had a request for pictures. I feel like such a dumb ass because I thought adding pictures was going to be really hard to learn. ((so embarrassed.... AGAIN))

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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

As you may know, last week fell to shit.  I planned on walking last week.  Didn't do it.  On top of that, I ate all kinds of crap... then took naps.

Bottom line I lost zero weight this week.  I'm actually not too upset.  The way I was going at it I was sure I gained 5 pounds.

I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me.  Why do I sabotage myself?  I know what needs to be done. Simple formula - eat less move more.  So what's the problem?  I can't blame it on heredity - I don't have one relative as big as me.  Although I've had bad shit happen to me, I'm not eating my feelings - I'm pretty much an open book with those.

All I know is I like food and it likes me.

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Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Being green always seemed like such a pain.  Where would I start?  Like anything else, it's one step at a time. Taking baby steps to go green is not just good for our Mother Earth, it can also put more green in your pocket. 

Start by stop buying 20oz plastic bottles of pop and bottled water.  I use a Brita pitcher.  We also have a PUR filter on the faucet.  Purchase reusable water bottles and start drinking more water (I top off with Crystal Light, lemon or lime).

This one small change has many benefits:
  • Save money from buying pop and water.
  • Keep plastic bottles from ending up in landfills.
  • Lose weight from drinking more water and less pop.
  • By drinking more water and less sugary soda pop your skin will look better.
I feel good about the baby steps I have taken to be green.  I also know there is so much more I can do.  Someday I hope to:
  • Purchase a cloths line and start hanging laundry outside to dry - hoping to do next summer.
  • Start a compost - someday.
  • Start a garden - someday.
  • Recycle cell phones - on our next upgrade.
What small changes have you made?  What are some of your green tips?
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Monday, July 5, 2010

The other night I was up late at my computer.  All was quiet except for the taping of the keyboard keys and the low murmur coming from the TV.  Then I heard Tyson.  He was getting off the couch.  I heard the couch cushions as he moved, I heard his tags jingle and his paws hit the floor.

I know that noise. I've heard it plenty of times from
Payton but I could not believe Tyson was on the furniture - somehow he seems to stay off.

I went into the living room to catch him.  I called out, "Tyson, stay off the couch" and then turned on the light.  No Tyson.  Then I heard Tyson crawling out from underneath our bed.

It wasn't Tyson on the couch.  I may sound nuts.  I know I do.  I think it was Payton.  I swear I see or hear his ghost from time to time.  Once I was standing in front of an open fridge and he touched my hand.  (I thought that was Tyson too)  When I looked down to pet him, there Tyson was lying down fast asleep in the next room.

It will soon be a year that Payton has been gone. It really doesn't seem that way at all.  My heart still thinks it was last week.

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Sunday, July 4, 2010



  Have a safe and happy 4th!!!

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Friday, July 2, 2010

Shortly after I got married my dad came to visit (We live in different states).  He told me to take it easy on Gman.  He said it is stressful to be a man, to be responsible for a family.  He said if I want something (house, furniture, car, whatever) not to pressure Gman into getting it for me.  If Gman says we can't go out and spend money don't get angry at him.  Don't put that extra pressure on him. 
He went on to tell me personal things I won't share because they are not mine to share.  I will say his experiences made me realize just how difficult it must be for a man...all that is resting on their shoulders.

I never have put pressure on Gman for anything.  It's made for less arguments about money.  I think it's great advice so I'm passing it on to you.  

Thanks, Dad.  I love you.
If you really hate the picture, I'll take it down.