Friday, October 15, 2010

Enough Love For Two?

Becoming a mom changed my whole life.  M was the perfect little baby.  There was always a reason for his cries:  hunger, dirty diaper, wanting attention.  It was so easy being his mommy.

As he grew, I couldn't imagine loving anyone more than my heart loved him.  I wanted another baby but I just couldn't see how my heart would let me love another little person as much as I loved M.

When I became pregnant with our second those worries came back.  I have never heard of anyone feeling the same doubts.  Still it wasn't until I was late in my pregnancy did I talk about them.

A friend had just given birth to her second child so I confided in her.  She said she had felt the same exact way and not only until she saw her second child did it all go away... I hoped that would be true for me too.

After giving birth to C, they put him in my arms.  I looked down into his little pink face and I fell in love all over again.  My heart was so full of love for him I cried. 

My baby boys (now 15 & 19) still fill my heart with love.  Doubts gone forever.  Never have I felt more love for one over the other. 

I'm not proud of my doubts.  I can't imagine our lives without C.

I just wanted to share with all those mommies of one who may wonder..."Do I have enough love for two?"

Because you do. 
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sherri said...

I am a mother of one... I never wanted another. But I do know I would've been able to love equally however many there would be... it amazes me that a mother's love is able to love so completely every one of her children... magical almost!

More Milestones said...

Nothing beats a mother's love, that's for sure.
: )

Liz (Loving Mom 2 Boys) said...

Isn't it amazing how much that love just grows and spreads - I know with my 3rd on the way I will love her just as much as my 2 boys!!