So after posting my dream of winning lotto millions, Gman tells me we may be losing our Internet privileges soon. (zero money) So I follow my dad's advice and not cry, bitch and moan.
The universe is funny, huh? Dream of money then the reality of being broke steps up and smacks you.
I'm an attendance clerk at an elementary school. I really love my job. I feel a responsibility toward each child I come in contact with. As they come into the office for an icepack or disciplinary reasons, I try to make those teachable moments.
I've been talking to God and asking Him if the school is where I need to be. As I tell others: sometimes you are where you are not because God is punishing you but because God is using you as a blessing for others. I feel I bring joy to my co-workers and smiles to the children I come in contact with...at least I try.
At the same time, it's really hard being there when I don't bring home much money because I only work 24 hrs a week. The work is unpredictable - a few years ago a co-worker flat out told me she would be bumping me out of my position - she did.
This past year a girl who does my job in the afternoon had the nerve to tell me she would be working full-time this fall (she says the principal promised her) and there was nothing I could do about it.... even though she has less seniority. Real nice, huh?
That's the kind of stuff I don't like. I don't like people who take advantage of the system. This girl works the "single mom" angle like no one but in reality she's been living with her boyfriend for years, he works full-time, their home is paid off, she goes to school and receives help from the state because they don't know he lives with her. She also has great parents who help her out tons.
I try not to let these things get to me. I try to remember that I am here to serve God and He does have a plan for All His children... Like all children, I'm behaving badly and being ungrateful.
I will continue to look for a job but I will be grateful for whatever the Lord has planned for me.